Blah. I’m trying to work on one of my websites and I just haven’t kept up with this stuff. It’s so ridiculous, here I am, Googling some basic HTML code because I just can’t remember exactly how it goes. I used to breathe code, haha, what happened? People do still ask me to do websites from time to time and I just tell them that I haven’t kept up with the technology and I don’t have the time to research how to do this or that, whatever they want. It really stinks when you can’t remember something that you used to do so well! Now all of my sites, which aren’t nearly as many as there used to be (and I only do two for other people now), have templates created by someone else. :)
Here I am again, up entirely way too late. Surprising, actually, because I was utterly sleepy all afternoon and evening. Must be that coffee I grabbed when we got the kids ice cream.
This morning I had the opportunity to work with a gorgeous model. She donned an almost-vintagey wedding dress and flower crown and we headed to a beautiful location… a creek! Not the typical type around here, either, full of mud and what not, this one was just breathtaking, rock bottom and crystal clear water, complete with a great view of downstream. The rock is what makes up the bank, too, so it can be a bit overwhelming if you don’t get the right angles.
Took my son with me, his first time to really be paid as an assistant and he did pretty well. I mostly needed a pack mule but he was helpful in other ways, too. One of these days I’ll start actually teaching him photography.
The weather ended up being just perfect, too. It was raining all night and all morning where we live but the location had a window where the weathermen were calling for only 5% rain and it was just timed perfectly. I couldn’t have asked for better, especially after the horribly humid day we had yesterday. The rain, I guess, washed some of that humidity away. I actually got cold and was utterly chilled to the bone by the time we got home. I hopped right in the shower to clean off and warm up!
I’ve posted one preview so far and it’s gotten some great reviews and interaction. I’m pretty proud of it myself. I’m always improving and this year I’ve spent a lot of time learning about editing. Photography skills all being equal, your editing will make or break you.
I’m looking forward to going through the rest of the images but it’s going to have to wait until I design and order a client wedding album. Then we shall see! :)
This has been an extraordinarily busy week for me. I mean, I’m always busy, but never have I had so many meetings in one week! Every night this week including Sunday which doubled as a wedding consultation and an engagement session and Thursday was one of my kids’ open houses at school. Three more wedding consultations in those six days and one sales session. Oy! And it’s not over yet, I have two photo sessions this weekend. No breaks in sight, which is completely and totally cool. In the past I have really limited what I do but now that the kids are getting older, it’s easier to schedule more in. I don’t have to worry about diapers and bottles and feeding times and nap times anymore, and most of the time they can go with their dad, even to work sometimes. I have been praying for more fall work and more fall weddings. Especially since I had to make the decision not to take on weddings in July or August anymore and very severely limit my sessions during those hot months as well.
So, weddings. Of these four, I’ve booked three so far. Not sure if the fourth is going to pan out or not but I’m cool with it if it doesn’t. Not everyone has to like me but I’ll say that a 95% success rate in the consultation to booking ratio is pretty darn good. Of the three I’ve booked this week, two are this fall (September and October) and one is next September. I have one already booked for next November. That is just crazy to me. I didn’t plan my own wedding that far in advance and every one of my siblings and my husband’s siblings have been quick planners as well.
It weirds me out a little bit, planning things so far in the future. There are so many “what ifs” that can happen between now and a year, two months, three weeks, and two days from now. So much can go wrong, so much can go right. The number in my family can change drastically, or I could be taken from this earth. Anything can happen, and that thought can cause quite the anxiety if one lets it!
This verse is always in my mind:
Boast not yourself of tomorrow; for you know not what a day may bring forth. – Proverbs 27:1
In other words, remember that tomorrow may not come. Not to say I won’t plan, but I won’t “boast” in those plans, I will not go forward without remembering that every day is a gift and none are owed to me. I will plan these weddings but I will also make sure my husband knows where I keep my contracts, just in case!
So here I am again. I imported the few entries I had at my “new” site back over here. I have other ideas for that domain. We’ll see…
Life has been a whirlwind here lately. It doesn’t help that I have been going to bed at mostly a decent time since we moved last fall, ha! I’ve always been such a night owl but now with both kids in school and the fact that I’m getting older, keeping late nights was starting to kill me. Going to try and get back to documenting some life here, I hope, after all, this site is now approaching its FOURTEENTH year. How does that even happen!?
I’m not really sure why I’m here right now, haha. One thing leads to another: checking email to another website, saw it has updates, start doing updates on other sites, yada yada yada. I’m supposed to be editing a wedding right now. I’m a little past my deadline now and need to get with it. But I do have an appointment for the couple to view their photos next week so at least they’re not just hanging out there waiting.
When it comes to blogging these days, though, I think part of my problem is I’m more of a private person than I used to be. Either that or just plain more goes on and I don’t feel like everyone possibly knowing. But then again, the people that I feel like don’t need to know everything have probably forgotten about this place and if they haven’t, and are here, well then, Hi, guess you care more about me than I thought, hahaha.
I can’t really seem to get back to blogging again, certainly not like I used to.
So so so so much happens around here and I guess at the end of the day, I’m just tired, and there’s too much running during the day.
And because I’m stupid, I’m actually working on starting a second photography business, more specialized, so now I have that website to work on and I’m considering turning this domain into something else, the catch-all, I guess.
So I totally plunged the big plunge and got my first iMac today. Took them about 24 hours to get it to me, despite 2 day shipping. That in itself is overwhelming, ha!
I’ve always been a hardcore Windows girl but my photography business demands differently now.
So far I love it. I’m pretty familiar with iPad already so it’s not completely foreign and on one hand it’s very easy and on the other hand… not so much.
The thing I’m really struggling with right now is not having a taskbar to pull up what I’m doing and how I can pull up the program but not the actual program window. Then file structure and accessing files is another thing.
So we shall see what we shall see. I’ve made too big of an investment now to turn back around imo. The screen itself is enough to make me stay and never want to look at my old laptop again.
By the way, anyone want to buy two Windows laptops and an iPad 2? Yeah, new iPad Air is coming in a few days, I use that regularly but need more space!
it’s very random
I was in Bread Co yesterday evening to meet a client for her print ordering session. I always make sure I spend some money there when I meet someone at Bread Co. So I’m at the counter in the middle of placing my order and the cashier interrupts me with:
“You’re my favorite customer.”
Of course, I said “what?” and laughed a little and he said, “you said ‘caramel,’ not ‘carmel.’ ‘Carmel’ sounds so… gross.”
Gave me a giggle. I said, “well, it’s spelled ‘caramel’!” Any time I order my caramel drinks there or at McDonald’s or wherever, they always repeat it back “carmel”!
This Grammar Nazi dies a little inside each time. It might be noticeable if it weren’t for people around here saying “warsh” all the time, that has already deadened me.
Apparently I have some anxiety issues. My new class talking about and scheduling the three after-class get-togethers and already I’m trying to think of ways to get out of going, to avoid being around people. Whut. And, to be honest, I don’t even know why. They are all perfectly lovely ladies.
Sometimes I just lay in bed and cry. It hit me hard tonight. Driving is very difficult at times, too, probably because, unless children are screaming, I’m left alone with my thoughts for 45 minutes.
I have to cry privately, it upsets the children.
I just miss her so much and my heart cries out for resolution. Losing my other friend to cancer is different, we know where she went. But we don’t know where she is.
And another friend said something to me yesterday that, at the time, didn’t register much, I guess. But now, full meaning has arrived and I don’t know what to do with this information.
My brain is too full lately. I don’t really have room for grief. I push it away as long as I can get away with.
Today was a symbolic day of a year ago. Rather, a year, one week, and six days ago. We were all doing this same thing one year, one week, and six days ago and when we woke up the next morning we went about our day but soon the reality would come and change our lives forever.
I have so many things I want to tell her, so many things I want to ask her.
Oh God, please reveal the truth. I’m not sure we can take any more of this.