running start

So it is now the day after Thanksgiving and I can say that I spent yesterday sticking to my diet.  Was pretty hard not to eat all the potatoes and especially that casserole thing my aunt makes, but I did it.  In fact, Wednesday night, the Wii Fit informed me that I am now down 25 lbs.  Oh, yes, this IS gonna happen, baby.  The diet’s not as hard as I thought it was going to be, honestly.  The food’s not bad if I pick what I like and if I keep myself busy, I don’t think about things I shouldn’t eat so much.  I have a big weakness for Mountain Dew and pasta, but I’ve had neither in 20 days or more now.  If I get to wishing I could have the pizza everyone else is having or craving the mashed potatoes, I just get busy doing something else.  During the second Thanksgiving dinner we had to go to yesterday, I sat instead in the connected living room and crochet and talked to everyone else.  Was so not hard to not eat when they were.

But now that we’re really getting past being sick the past two weeks (and boy did that suck), I’m really starting to feel really good.  I had to tighten my bra straps a notch, yesterday I wore a shirt than when given to me was too small, my wedding rings are really loose, and even the Crocs that I wear around the house feel big over the tops of my feet.  I’m off to a running start and I know I can do this.  I’ll start working out again soon, too.

The only thing is, and this sounds really stupid to say, I’m not looking forward to buying new clothes.  LOL.  Well, I am, but only when I get to my goal.  The transition’s gonna be hard because I haven’t kept a lot of “skinny” clothes around.  Most are either too old or too much below my age, or I’ve long since given them away/donated them.    So I’m not looking forward to the added expense of “in between” clothes.  But then again, maybe on the other hand, I’ll actually be able to find something that fits in thrift stores, ha!  It also sounds stupid that I have some “fat clothes” that I will be missing,  hopefully I can find something just as good when I get where I’m going.  :)

So bring on Christmas, I am sticking to this.


So what’s going on?

I’ve started a new diet, officially, today.  Not going to talk too much about that I think, don’t wanna jinx it!  But here it is Friday and I’ve been such a good girl… NO, absolutely NO soda since Sunday when I said ok, cold turkey again, have to.  This time it’s gonna have to stay, at least until I reach my goal.  Only then, maybe, can I treat myself every once in a while.  Of course, getting caffeine completely out of my system and having one later may put me on overload.

I’ve also started trying to get this house whipped into shape.  It’s taking longer than I wanted it to.  I blame that on my kids.  I spent all day re-organizing their room and the very next day, Kayleigh totally trashed it.  Dumped out all the toys, even pulling drawers out and dumping them.  But I did get the living room re-organized and it looks pretty good, still gets covered in toys but not nearly as many as before.  The center room is next and that’s going pretty slow.  I also spent a lot of time putting up these adorable chalkboard decals on the kids’ door and some sweet animals on the empty wall after dismantling the crib last week… only to have to take them all down the very next day.  Turned out they terrified Kayleigh.  Who would have known??

So, yes, the crib, she is gone.  Stored in pieces, temporarily, in the garage as I’m not sure what to do with it.  I wonder if our trash men would take it away.  It’s the kind of crib that they are outlawing so I couldn’t and wouldn’t try to resell it and my kids damaged it so you have to permanently have the side up, so a lot of people wouldn’t like that anyway.  It’s just so big…  But the transition was MUCH easier than I thought it would be.  The first night I put Kayleigh in her Big Girl bed (aka bottom of the bunk bed) and she got up once so I put her back in the crib, she cried a bit then went to sleep.  The next night she got up from her bed and I put her back then she went to sleep, same thing the night after that.  The next day I removed the crib because I was sick of it.  That night was trickier because she was still scared of the decals but I put her in bed, shut the light and the door really fast, then she stayed in bed.  Since then, when I’ve been putting her to bed, she’s been staying.  I can hardly believe it.  However, this also means largely no naps.  We’re only getting naps out of her if we happen to be driving at the right time or she falls asleep somewhere in the living room.  So far she’s slept on the little trampoline and on the floor between the couch and love seat.  I actually did just put her in for a nap, we’ll see if she sleeps or not.  She was trying to fall asleep in her high chair.

Also because of Kayleigh’s new found freedom, I’ve had to buy a gate.  I got this extended width walk-through gate for between the living room and the rest of the house.  She gets free reign of the living room and their bedroom and I don’t have to worry about her sticking her hands in the toilet or trying to leave the house.  She could probably climb over the gate if she really tried to, but so far, we’re good.  Best $60 I ever spent.

As for me, I have been having these weird headaches for a while now.  They were every day for a week though when I went to the doctor on Monday.  We are hoping it’s just my sinuses and not something serious.  ‘Cause to tell you the truth, they feel so weird they freak me out.  He put me on some antibiotics and my sinuses did start draining and I’m not feeling constant headaches like before but it still hurts in that strange way on the top and sides of my head when I lay down.  So falling asleep is no fun right now.  I’m going to carry the antibiotics through and if it continues will go back to the doctor again.  He said if my sinuses wouldn’t clear, the next step is cat scan to see how they look.  I may end up with one either way.  We’ll see.