Is this what it feels like?
To have someone you love be missing?
I’m not even of immediate family but I feel numb. Tiny. So insignificant. Helpless.
I had to keep it quiet all day long. Smile and laugh at the appropriate moments while worrying inside. My inner self face down in prayer.
And now that the community has come alive I’ve broken down. My head is filled from tears and neither of us can sleep.
I can’t imagine life without her.